Just awhile more ت

2011-07-30T08:09:00.000-07:00

There's a reason behind every of my smile.

2011-07-02T07:48:00.000-07:00

A few pic when i went to macau that time. I am so lazy to post more pic. Today went to town with ahboy, nicola , yuanlong & lianheng. Stuck at cine all the way. Such a tiring day >:

2011-07-01T11:43:00.000-07:00

Hihi, i'm here to write nonsence again <: I sleep at home the whole day today, i dont know why i am so freaking tired , walk till where also can sleep till where. I'm such a pig oh (^00^) . It's 2.30 now & that jinjin is still at outside having fun , he's so going to get a scolding from me soon. Laughs !

Couple rings , <3 .
I'm so hoping to get a couple rings with my future boyf next time , it's so sweet !

Key from shine & Hongki from ft island.

Omfg , i'm just so fucking in love with both of them. they're just so cute alrights!! How i wish they're my boyf but it's impossible. heh .

2011-06-30T10:17:00.000-07:00

爱上不该爱的人

I know my blog is so so so dead . It's 1 am now and i still cant sleep yet, jinjin is gonna nag at me soon. I seriously hate schools, bored to the max. I finally deleted everything, i even tear away the photo inside my wallet. I've been acting tough all this while. I wants to hate you but i can't, you're still my friend. I am feeling more and more better now. I've learn to forgive and forget. Since it's past then just let it be, i dont care (: I'm so enjoying my life nowadays, still standing here looking for a better guy. I was once happy w/o you, i believe i will be happy again, right ? hehehehs. What has done, it's already been done. Remember you left a scar inside me, nothing is gonna heal it. I finally learnt my mistakes. I still love you madly but on the same time , i already let it go. This is the last time i'm posting about you. Bye.

2011-06-17T08:46:00.000-07:00

Ops , i think it's been really long since i last updated my blog? Haha, I have feeling so much better all this while with jinjin by my side, he's such a good friend . He always cheer me up and say alot stupid stuff. I love the way he is now, he dont have to change. He's my best best best fake boyf. I guess he'll be touched if he saw this. Cause his name is appearing on my blog. HAHAHAHAH ! <3 .

The worst kind of love is the one felt by only one person.
Why is it no matter how much pain it endures by holding on the heart refuses to let go? Sometimes you think you've gotten over someone, but when you see him smile you suddenly realize that you're just pretending you got over him to erase the pain of knowing he'll never be yours. I'd give anything to read your mind, to get into your head. Then maybe I'd find out how to get you to notice me once more, to make you want me like you used to. But then again, I guess I also find out how much you don't care for me, and what you really think about when you look at me.
Why is it so easy to say I love you when you don't mean it, but when you want to mean it the most, you just can't say it.
Sometimes the one you love turns out to be the one who hurts you the most, and sometimes the friend who takes you into his arms and cries when you cry turns out to be the one who love you, you'll never knew.
I've come to terms with the fact that you can't make someone love you if they don't. That you really shouldnt trust anybody because nobody is truly worth it. I've realized that love is just a game and like any other game loses...and this time...that someone was me
. If you could just tell me why you hurt me, maybe I could forgive you for it. But never, never will I forget it. Nothing makes it all better again. Nothing Lasts forever. And I knew that I could not bear the thought of never hearing that laughter anymore, please make me forget all that hurts me. Time for another guy now <: Soon , they'll appear .

2011-05-15T14:58:00.000-07:00

W/o make up.

See the diff between my eyes ?

When you fall in love, it is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake, and then it subsides. And when it subsides, you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots are become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the desire to mate every second of the day. It is not lying awake at night imagining that he is kissing every part of your body. No... don't blush. I am telling you some truths. For that is just being in love; which any of us can convince ourselves we are. Love itself is what is left over, when being in love has burned away...

Goodbye, goodbye, I hate the word. It's amazing how someone can break your heart and you can still love them with all the little pieces. I'm a idiot , a fool who's always been cheated . The hardest thing to do is watch the one you love, loving someone else .. I gave you everything but it wasn't enough to make you stay , you love her . I have nothing else say . Boy , i really miss you alot but can what can i do .. ? I'm jealous, i hate you and everything we once were..

2011-04-23T13:39:00.000-07:00

It's saturday and i've no place to go again ! ): I dont want to stuck at jurong anymore lah , so no life yeah . Maybe movie later on " the chinese ghost story " . Wonder isit nice anot . Where are those handsome guy nowadays ? Ohoh , Now i must control my diet already , this few day i keep eat and eat . I'm growing fatter soon ._.

2011-04-22T00:13:00.000-07:00

What a boring day ! ): Late for school today cause that jeremy didnt wake me up . I've been singing in the class for the whole day man , going paranoid soon i guess ? Hey guy ! I'm super sad you know ! ): I miss him but i cant do anything . And worse thing , i quarrel with my friend again . I just dont like her mixing with those people lah. Hais , i dont know le lah . I dont wanna care anymore. Fml .

2011-04-15T20:22:00.000-07:00

This is how i look w/o make up, ugly right ? :X

Today is 16th .. Boy , do you know what date is today.. ? You already have her i know 16th is meaningless to you now. By right, you should be recieving a sweetsweet message and a present from me now .. Just like what i did on the first month .. The love contract i did for you . You smiled and you said that i'm silly . Remember .. ? I'm flashing back our pictures & memories . I really really miss you alot . But i cant do anything , all i can do is just to see you smile happily with your girlf . I recall the words that you said, I hope they were true like how i believe you.. Girl , please wake up from your fantasy land. He's not right for me, he has hurt me not once, but twice. I'm stupid enough to wait. I just bloody don't want to let go. To him , i'm only his 2nd choice , when he got her , he choose to leave me, but when she's gone, he'll come back to me ..

2011-04-01T23:51:00.000-07:00

There will always be a rainbow after every rain storm,even though its only there for a short while. Do you notice something? Its always after a heavy rain or big storm. There'll be a beautiful rainbow. Just like in a relationship. My relationship is like going through a heavy storm which rains almost everytime. I don't like it. I hate it. You're the first guy whom i showed the less attitude to. Okay,i admit it. You're the first guy who fits in my 'Perfect Guy' list. You treat me really good. I hate the facts that you're not mine anymore . But seeing you so happy now , i've nothing to say . I will never replace her , i lose :') In the morning when i saw facebook , i fucking cant control my tears , i just keep crying & crying . It's hurts really hurts alot. You're so happy now , enjoying your new life . But i'm here keeping everything to myself , being alone & lonely . Stupidly waiting & waiting for your return . You wont know how i feel. I understand your situation for leaving but i hate it really hate it alot alot ! Why am i always the one hurt & in so much pain? TELL ME WHY WHY WHY ! How much more tears i still have to drop for you? I really dont know dont know . All i can do now is wish you lastlong and goodluck .. Thanks jw brother for everything .

2011-03-29T23:01:00.000-07:00

Fuck lah , i super jealous & i dont know why . Dont flirt girls lah ): I miss him so so so so much but i can't get to see him . ): What should i do ? 2 more days only . Will they really be together ? hais , i dont know lah .. Afternoon went to jesslyn house , had alot fun with her , joking all around , like a fool only . Around 7 meet eddy & samuel at jurong point awhile. After that went to meet florence . Had alot of chit chat with her too , she say she wanna catch fish & change one ipod touch for me :D ! I love her lahhh , hehehehs . Wo hen sad ! I miss the old times when everyone are still together ): LJH , where are you ?

2011-03-28T14:14:00.000-07:00

This was those photos from yesterday , thanks both eric & tatsuya bro for making me smile . Eric uh , cheer up alright , dont sad anymore . I'll be here always .

I suddenly found this picture , the girlfriend's contract (: So cute right . hahaha .. i did realise that i might be a idiot, but i still choose to trust you. You told me that you will be back , so i wait . I believe that you would cause i know you'll never lie to me want , right ? Standing down here alone waiting for your return, preparing a smile to welcome you back.. To you , i might look happy now , but actually i'm not at all totally not . I'm just acting a fake smiling infront of you , i dont want you to feel guity or pity me. I did everything on purpose, i just want to see how you'll react . but you dont seem to care at all . Maybe, i'm just thinking too much , laughing to myself & thought that you would get jealous. Everytime when i'm at outside with friends, once i stare in air & walls. Your face just fucking came into my mind . Thinking about those funny things we always do together and those retarded and blur faces you gave me , really make me silently smiling to myself , that time it really feel so happy to be with you by my side eveytime , every mins & secs . She's the only one you will worry , the one you will care , the one you'll cry for & the one staying in your heart , not me . No matter how hard i've tried , i still can't move it , there's always no place for me . Am i really that lousy ? I flirt and jihong because i just want my mind to be occupied & not thinking about you that will make me tears . I really really miss you, when are you coming back ? Tjw .

2011-03-27T10:26:00.000-07:00

Yeah , it's 10.17 now . Meeting amirul at jurongpoint later on ! So excited . hehs . Omgosh , my lip is so pain , i bit till bleeding . Wellwell , i'm back to single . He seem happier now , he happy i also happy . I learnt to be strong because i know the shadow he left behind is standing by my side always . I'm waiting for him but dont let me wait too long oh . Bye 16th's . I love you . Off to bath and prepare now , maybe continue posting after i'm back home ? (:

2011-03-26T23:27:00.000-07:00

I know my blog is dead, so i'm here to post . Went to imm with jesslyn & samuel today. I swear there is super boring , nothing to walk want . Thanks samuel for the ribborn hairband ! <3 .

Boy , i wanted this relationship to last but nothing last forever. 5 more days only. I know what is your choice on that day, so i guess it's the best yeah? Trusted you so much , in the end , i'm just her subtitude afterall . I know this day would come cause your silent prove to me everything , you left me here alone crying. I dont blame you if you gonna leaving me, i'll only blame myself for trusting your words so much. Holding on to something that might never ever come true is the most stupid thing i ever do . Once, you make me feel like i'm number one in every convesation we had, but slowly you turn colder & colder to me. When i tell you, you just told me. " Dont be stupid, i'm still the same. " But i know actually it's not. In this short short 1month, 1week & 3 days , i fall in love and i had alot of fun being with you, you're the best boyf i ever had, always been treating me so good. The path i choose to walk , i will take the consequences myself all alone, i has never regrets. I hope there's still miracles. If i ask you to stay on the 31st , will you.. ?

2011-03-05T06:44:00.000-08:00

When i'm talking on phone with baby :p .

This is the cute stitch that i get from jesslyn and samuel bro . Wondering how much they spend on it .

My blog is dead man , no much people tag liao :/ . Nevermind , Shall start posting now . At 12 plus , bath, prepared and off to baby house . Actually today purpose to go town want , but ended up was birding at jurong point . ): ji sad yi xia lorh , didn't get to watch my ex haunted lover . I'm 16 already , i can watch :D ! Saw my eyleen dardar at letter box just now. Curious about how her fringe looks like now . laughs ! Lastly , Thanks to my dearest for sending me home .

2011-02-26T18:39:00.000-08:00

Hai people ! (: I'm back to posting , my blog like dead already ._. . Cause nothing to update le . Yesterday just went to universal studio with baby & co . Had alot of fun there , and i can get to see baby unglum face . heh , i'm so tired now . ): Waiting for some dummy to wake up and text me .

2011-02-13T10:50:00.000-08:00

This picture remind me & everyone the most . (: Things will never be like this again , i will never be with them anymore . Today , i've decided . I choose to give up & let it go , because i know you'll never be back . Even if you're back le , you'll never change, no point also ma . Everything single thing we did , it'll always be my best best memories . First time i've been so mad in love . Yes , i still love you, but letting go is the best way for me and you . Remember take care of yourself , i won't be there for you anymore . But if you're sad , you can always come find me , i'll try to console you , that's how a friend should be yeah . I'll try to be strong too , there are people around me to takecare of me . If we have the fate , god will bring us back to each other again mayb when we're older ? Goodbye desmond & 15th's . Learn to treat a girl well too , dont always bully them uh . I believe one day i'll found someone better than you too . HAHA . No worries la , i might be a crybaby but i'm a strong strong girl . There are so many good guy & handsome guy out there for me . LOL , hao lah , i dont wanna say so much le . Dont aways think so negative okay ? You won't go in rtc de . Goodluck friend .

2011-02-09T21:31:00.000-08:00

Today didnt go to school yeah :/ . 14 & 15 i gonna pon school again ! :D . Going zoo on 14th with baby & co . heheheh ! It's been years since i last go sial . I miss those animals over there . I've done my dnt research , so i dont have to wory about it the next lesson (: , i'm such a good girl yeah ? Samuel brother is out today , i'm so happy ! :D . I hate those police who beat samuel , hope your whole family die die die ! -'- . I miss my babyboy ): sucker .

I was looking at our pictures & thinking of so many things we did together before . Our wonderful story , there's so much more to say , i cant even finish it . You treat me the best in the past , so do i . I still remember we shared many secrets w each other & we always talk alot nonesence & about who we like & what we always did . Maybe, its my fault . But somehow i really wanna thank you too . cause everytime when im down, you'll never fail to be there for me . Doing stupid stuns , saying retarded things & every single thing you did for me. I love you more than anyone else . You should know that too . Dear friend , i know i'm no longer important to you . But i still treat you as my friend . You have your friends now & i guess you dont need me anymore, right? Im sorry i didnt cherish you. Memories are always best to be remembered yeah ?

2011-02-07T22:37:00.000-08:00

My blog is gonna be dead one day, seriously. I don't know what to post these days & worst come to worst I don't have the time to update my blog.When i keep see you alone like that , i wanted to talk to you . I guess i can't do it ba . Anyway you seem more happy wihtout me . (: Desmond lee ! I miss you so badly ! >: 7 more days to our 4 month .

QUIZ TAKEN FROM: Jasmine
1. Are you single?

- Nope.

2. Are you happy?

- No

3. Are you bored?

- Super bored.

4. Are you Italian?

- No.

5. Are you intelligent?

- ok ok lorh?

6. Are you nice?

- Yes, obviously .

7. Are you Irish?

- Nope.

8. Are you Asian?

- Yes.

EIGHT FACTS

1. Full Name:

- Why must i tell you ?

2. Nickname:

- Beeyoke

3. Birth Place:

- Singapore.

4. Hair Colour:

- Brown-black.

5. Eye Colour:

- Brown.

6. Birthday:

- 25th Feb.

7. Mood:

- Shag & sad .

8. Favourite Colour:

- Pink, blue , black & white .

QUESTIONS:

1. Have you been in love?

- Yes, who doesn't ?

2. Do you believe in love at the first sight?

- Not anymore.

3. Do you currently have a crush?

- No, but i have a cute boyfriend.

4. Have you ever been hurt emotionally?

- Yes, SUPER DEEP .

5. Have you ever broken someone heart?

- yeah , alot ?

6. Have you ever had your heart broken?

- Yeah.

7. Have you ever liked someone but never tell them?

- Not really.

8. Who was the last person you hug?

- Sharon.

9. Who was the last person you said i love you to?

- My boyfriend.

SEVEN THIS OR THAT:

1. Love or lust:

- Love.

2. Hard liquor or beer:

- Hard liquor.

3. Cats or dogs:

- Dogs

4. Pencil or Pen:

- Pen.

5. Wild night out or romantic night in:

- Romantic night.

6. Money or Happiness:

- BOTH

7. Day or night:

- Both.

EIGHT HAVE YOU EVER:

1. Been caught sneaking out?

- Yeah.

2. Seen a polar bear?

- Yes , years ago . ):

3. Done something you regret?

- Yes, obviously.

4. Bungee jumped?

- Yes.

5. Eaten food that fell on the floor?

- No ._.

6. Finished an entire jaw breaker?

- No?

7. Wanted an ex bf/gf back?

- Nope , not anymore .

8. Wanted to disappear?

- Yes , badly .

SIX PREFERENCES IN A PARTNER:

1. Smile or eyes?

- Both.

2. Light or dark hair?

- Light.

3. Hugs or kisses?

- BOTH .

4. Shorter or taller?

- Taller!

5. Intelligence or attraction?

- Both.

6. Sweet or bad?

- Sweet.

TEN HAVE YOU:

1. Ever performed in front of a large crowd?

- Yes, long ago.

2. Ever talked on the phone for longer than an hour?

- Yes, longest 9 hours .

3. Ever tried walking on your hands?

- No ==

4. Ever been to a rock concert?

- No , not interested.

5. Ever been on a cheerleading team?

- Nope.

6. Ever been on a dance team?

- Yes when i was primary 5 & 6 .

7. Ever been on a sports team?

- No.

8. Ever been in a drama play/production?

- Yes.

9. Ever own a BMW, Mercedes Benz, Escalade, Hummer or Bently?

- Not the age yet.

10. Ever been on a rap video?

- No .

EIGHT LASTS:

1. Last phone call you made?

- Sharon

2. Last person you hugged?

- Sharon

3. Last person you hung out with?

- Sharon

4. Last time you worked?

- ya

5. Last person you talked to?

- Grandma

6. Last person you texted?

- My boyfriend.

7. Last person(s) you went to the movies with?

- Leon korkor .

8. Last website visited?

- Facebook.com

Another QUIZ!

1. Single, Taken, or Crushing?

- Taken.

2. Are you happy with where you are?

- Yes, of course!

3. When you meet the right person, do you fall fast?

- Not at all .

4. Have you ever had your heart broken?

- Ya ? how many time are you going to ask ?

5. Do you believe that there are certain circumstances where cheating is ok?

- Depends on the situation.

6. Would you ever take someone back if they cheated you?

- Not ever .

7. Have you ever talked about marriage with another person?

- Yes, my beloved boyfried . He wanted to marry me so much ! :D

8. Do you want children?

- Yes, but i'm scare of pain ._.

9. How many?

- 2 is enough .

10. Would you consider adoption?

- No , not ever .

11. If someone like you right now, what will do?

- I dont give a dam . I only want my boyfriend to love me .

12. Do you enjoy playing hard to get?

- Huh?

13. Be honest, do you play the 'game' when you are dating?

- what game ?

14. Do you believe love at first sight exists?

- Nope .

15. Are you romantic?

- I don't know?

16. Do you believe that you can change someone?

- Maybe?

17. If you could get married anywhere, where would it be?

- I've no idea, grow up then decide .

18. Do you have feelings for someone right now?

- Ofcourse, my boyfriend.

19. Have you ever wished you couldn've had someone but you couldn't answer why?

- No.

20. Have you ever broken a heart?

- Maybe?

2011-01-30T15:45:00.000-08:00

My heart went down when i saw your message .. feeling is fading bit by bit ? hah , last time i remember you said that i confirm will be the one feeling fade first , but end up it was you not me . My feeling toward you is getting stronger , deeper & more . But now what ? why can't relationship just last ? ): . do you remember you once told me you wanted to marry me when i grow up ? Isit really from your heart .. ? From the first day we meet till now , i still remember everything . I remember the first day we meet , you was a shy guy . Keep dont dare eye to eye contact with me want. After days by days goes on . i slowly started to fall in love with you by your silly actions , your words . I also remember you make spoil my ribbon 4 time before ! ): when it's our first month , it really surprise and touched me the most . You brought a stitch & a handmade present for me . I was like " wow , it's such a sweet guy " . i never had this feeling before , It's the first time that a guy will do that for me . Day by day passes , we started to quarrel alot & now we became like this .. right ? Baby , if after new year , your feeling for me still havent come back , then we should do it that way le ba . Because i dont want a relationship without your love , it wont have happiness to both of us .. I love you is the only thing i can say now .. After new year , we'll see how ba .. I really misses those time you hug me , kiss me & jokes with me ..

2011-01-28T19:36:00.000-08:00

Today is saturday already , sorry to say . i can't make up my mind .. I still love him like i always do .. Korkor , i know you're leaving me on sunday for sure . Sorry , i have nothing i can do to stop you le , I wish you could stay and protect me , guide me like now , but you said you still have to go . i wanted you to fetch me home always , run out and find me when i'm crying , cheering me up like a dumb . i just like the way you're , you're a good brother to me . I'll try to cheer up & be strong after that . Don't worry about me . I'm fine (: I'll always bring the coin with me wherever i go . Thanks for your smile , your everything that put in me . Hope you won't really dont contact me anymore , we still can be friends right ?

Happy birthday to this botak YUAN MUN FEI .

Lastlong okay ! If you dare to hurt her , i'm gonna kill you , kick your ass , cut away your kuku i tell you :D . Thanks alot , thanks you for always be there for us . I love you ! (:

2011-01-26T22:47:00.000-08:00

Isn't this tatoo nice ? (: I just change my blogskin only , it take me so long. Didnt went to school today , not feeling so well ba . Jesslyn told me that tomorrow can wear make up to school ? Like ... wow ? The only problem is i dont have a proper dress ._. , cause they say can't wear tube or whatever . Dont wear tube wear what sial , westwood jiu shi westwood , alamak . He's working now & i miss him alot alot . It's been quite long since we last meet ): , he has been stressing with alot of stuff , but i'll be there for him always . I miss our old times , hahahahaha . It really make me smile alot . Your stupid faces , retarded actions & your cute smile ... Worse is , after this week , i'll lost one of my trusted korkor le , hais . Dont know what have i done again , why is he leaving me ? ): When i sad , he will never be there for me anymore , right ? i just hate 2011 lahs , alot unhappiness things happen . What's really happening to me ? .... hah .

2011-01-25T07:28:00.000-08:00

All of a sudden , I just miss those old times but i dont need you to be sweet to me le , cause i've already realise , being with you is the most sweetest thing you gave me . Stop being so subborn trying to kick me away . I know what you're thinking , i believe in miracles . Baby , believe me . Nothing is gonna happen . I'm gonna be by your side always , My ear and shoulder is always there for you. Dont ever try to think of leaving me again , i hate to be alone , without you . I'll suffer more . So we'll hold our hand together & go through everything together . I'll do anything for you even it risks my life . Understand already ? This is from my heart . Cheer up , i love you .

2011-01-09T00:51:00.000-08:00

Baby early in the morning go sin dua already , i can't go cause my grandma is at home . >: , Going out soon , meeting with jesslyn & yiling . Yiling helping me pierce my smiley later on :D

Edited :D .

I'm so bored bored bored now , baby that asshole is sleeping now , cause he sick . My piercing starting to get abit pain pain le sial , wth . Tomorrow is late day , yeahyeahyeah , eating breakfast with samuel , jesslyn & sharon tomorrow morning . bye people , i go eat first .

2011-01-08T07:57:00.000-08:00

It's been really long since i last update , lazy sial . wtf . i just come back home from baby house , bored ttm . Quarrel with baby yesterday & i almost ask for a break up sial , i really cannot tahan his attitude . But now , we're fine le , hope we won't quarrel again ba . Really , i dont want to drop any more tears for you anymore sucker . And horhh , i want you to be sweet to me laaaa T.T , dont always so violent to me lehh, don't even looks like a couple at all . Afternoon just watch " gui ye xiao '' .with baby & co . The movie was quite scary but funny also . ermmm , i go find new blogskin already . bye peeps .

My precious babygirl

2010-12-24T13:47:00.000-08:00

Baby,
We've been together for almost 2month 10days now, but it felt like it's been a year or so. I can't believe how fast our love grown within such a short time, and how we build trust and faith slowly together. Being together with you is the most happiest time of my life, You showed me what love really was. You gave me strength in love, which i had never had in my whole life. I love it when you hug me from behind so randomly, You gave me so much sense of security. I felt blessed when i'm with you. No one can ever love me like how you did, I need no one else but You. I love how you did ridiculous but cute actions when we are at outside wif BFAM, and how you randomly kiss mi. laughs There was many time we had a short quarrel and i fucking gave you attitude till you are pissed off. But somehow i still love you really <3 Lots of things were running in my head, I felt like giving up. My heart won't let me to, I knew you're everything to me and i can't afford to lose You. I was worried just because of short quarrels you would start to lose faith in this relationship, but you didn't. you made me fall deeper in love. I said i was sorry for everything , and every sorry i said was really from the bottom of my heart :) I don't want any sorry from you, I wanna tell you how much i love and treasure this relationship but i didn't have the courage to. Precious babgirl, i hope after you read this you would know how much i'm serious in this relationship and how much i want this relationship to last. I believe this relationship would work out if we both have faith in ourselves. I want each and every day of us to be meaningful and unforgettable. I'm sorry that you've to worry cause i'm someone who would disappear anytime. I promise after my sentence i will be back by your side 24/7 and talk on phone wif you till you are asleep :). After that, I promise i'll travel the world with you and wherever you wanna go. I'm willing to change for you. Lastly Iloveyou Girl <3

From: Your precious babyboy

2010-12-12T00:30:00.000-08:00

I'm finally out of that hell , he kick me out . i'm staying over @ my grandma house already . Actually i should be happy now but my mood still down cause of alot things . My phone & wallet no money , really can die . i can't even live without phone for a day . Now i haven't text for days already !! Can sky just fcuking drop me a top up card ? ): i wants to text him so badly , wants accompany him now , he's having family problems . yet i can't do anything but to quarrel with him . My temper is really getting bad to worse . i can't help in anything . it's really hurts inside me , i'm always keeping it to myself . I guess i only can act like everything perfect ba , try to smile as much as i can, it will be good for everyone , rights ? As per normal , i'm always lonely , no ones really understand me . i'm in a diff world from them .
D , cheer up ba , sorry that i can't do anything to cheer you up . i'm not a good girlf .
V , Heard that you found someone you love too ? Goodluck okay , you're my good good brother til the end . Past is always the best memories . Got her already don't forget me uh ! Today , i'm finally seeing your smile again . hahahhaha , still as cherful as last time .

My dear sweet wifey of mine

2010-12-06T13:57:00.000-08:00

Baby thought i would let you know that my love for you is burning very brightly ever since 15102010 :) My heart longs for you baby.My heart longs to leap at the sound of your cute voice <:My heart longs to be filled with joy by your smile :P My heart longs for my love, respect and adoration to flow to you as i fently kiss you on your lips.My heart longs to be warmed when i hold you in my arms. My heart longs to feel the passion as i caress your face, stare into your beautiful eyes and tenderly kiss you. My heart longs to see our love for one another grow as we sit on the couch and i slowly hug you into my arms. My heart longs to be clamed and comforted as i lovingly kiss and caress your bare arms. My heart longs for mi to cup your face in my hands and draw you in for a tender, loving and passionate kiss. My heart longs to feel the sensual express its desire as i tenderly and lovingly touch your lower back.My heart longs for mi to feel the love and desire of your gentle touch.My heart longs to experience the sensual passion between us.My heart longs to feel the love and joy of us cuddling and snuggling close.I adore you my lovely baby beeyoke ong <3

with all the love of my tender heart,

Your lovely boyf Desmond :)

To my Baby

2010-12-02T12:21:00.000-08:00

Is it funny that it takes the sun

The sun to get your mind on the topic of me

When all it takes is the moon

And it's you I see

The stars in their constellations

Remind me of every kiss that I plan to give you

Each one stronger and more passionate

But I wish I could write the way you do

I wanna give you more

Because you feel I push you away

From my past it isn't true

In my mind I want you to stay

I don't mean for my heart to be cold

Like you said it was the men in my life

I don't mean to accuse you

My heart will always strife

Never feel at fault

I wish I could mend quicker

But it takes time

Though we will fight and bicker

If anyone should try anything

It should be me

You've done plenty

Just you isn't how it's supposed to be

I have to be your girlfriend

I have to play my part

After all you are the man

Who stole my heart

I'm sorry if I don't give you credit for trying

I'll be sure to show it more

My past is the past

Now I close that door

I won't bring it up

It's not your past to bare

I understand why you worry

It's just the way you care

I love you so

Yes, until death

Even after

I will try my best

2010-12-01T17:00:00.000-08:00

i'm @ baby house updating now , i seldom play computer le , won't be posting much already . That idiot is now playing his iphone game and throwing me aside . sucker sucker sucker . i don't feel like going jurong point la , boring alrights ! Almost everyday stucking at there doing nothing . Meiqi sister , i will miss you , thanks for your everything , you used to come to my house accompany me whenever i'm sad , whenever i'm down . you're willing to wait for me even though i'm late . You can even wait till 2 hour plus outside my house for me to come out , you'll never complain or say anything. Among all , you're the best sister i ever have . Now, i'm too late to realise . sorry sister & thank you . Do remember me alright . Takecares . Hope you'll be more happy when you're back to tampinese .

2010-11-18T13:15:00.000-08:00

i'll be on-ing fb & update lesser le , computer kanna virus , i can't blog for long now , computer going restart soon i think . lalala , lastly , baby thanks alot .

2010-11-18T11:32:00.000-08:00

Well readers i m here once again :) baby is sleeping now and im helping her to blog..ok shall stop my crap now.Well as time goes by im loving you more and more baby and is kinda true that you are the first girl im changing myself for?laughs atfirst i though there wont be any point for mi to change myself for you but lighting strike mi on 15/11/2010 and its our first month , i make a wish , i wish that you could stay by myside and be there for mi when i need you and never leave mi.i make that wish hard.Well you all thinks that its just a relationship dont need put so much heart into in la she/he sure will run de la...but then you are the first girl that make mi believe in love again and thx baby for being by my side when i need you :) im just like a book and baby you are the reader reading the book , its only for you to understand mi well cos everything about mi its inside the book its only weather you are willing to put in heart to read or simply hack care and throw away the book :) like i have said im the book so i will have feeling to know weather have you put in the heart to read or not i can feel it :)time check its 3.23 now and its time for mi to sleep if not baby will be shouting like crazy tml when she come and see her blog :) pic do the talking during what i have done for baby for first month ani ba :) enjoy

2010-11-16T12:28:00.000-08:00

i think i'm not going out today , no place go . munfei & chinglong court postpone till 29nov already . (: Sharon is back , hehehs . i'm so happy larhs ! Thanks to sharon for everything , really .. you always treat me the best you can , buy porridge to my house when i'm sick , accompanying me go home even though your house is far from jurong point . Without you , i really dont know what to do . Ty sister ♥ ! Baby is still sleeping i think , cause he havent even text me yet , nowdays hardly meet him le , cause he's working . Hahaa , work hard okay ! (:

2010-11-13T14:32:00.000-08:00

I finally change my blogskin , it take me for like 1hour plus yeah , stupid . Now to think , i'm really missing the past when the 3 of us always hangout everyday, playing and laughing like mad woman together . But now everything have change , it won't be the same anymore . Sharon , i really miss you alot . When are you coming back ? ): , i wanted to tell you alot alot of things . Everyone is going town later on , yet i can't go ._. no money , seriously i really need a job . It's already 2.30 now , i guess that stupid desmond is still asleep , confirm want . Can anyone bring me to a far far place play ? ): i dont want to stuck at jurong areas anymore.

2010-11-11T14:58:00.000-08:00

It's been long since i last touch my computer ? :x , my brother went to thaliand already so this few days i can play computer more . Yesterday accompany baby & lianheng to interview , actually the interview was @resort world but that stupid baby thought it was at changi airport , make us travel all the way there to eat one laksa , stupid right ? After that trained to vivo & take bus go there . I'm so bored now , just eaten my lunch , my tummy is so full now , i think i gonna get fat soon , keep eat eat eat ._. well , everyone is changing now , like so obvious lorh ? zzz , new's come old's out , forget it , i dont wanna say anymore . what you guys always do at night , now also never tell me le horh ? you yourself know better . Hah , i miss sharon alot alot .

Bro, finally it's back to normal huh ? (: chiwawa , i'll always remembered it . i guess i've really change . Now , i'll love him like how i used to love you . It will be better right ? I'll do as what i've promised him , he treat me better than you alot , he trusted me and everything . As we said , maybe someday we're older ? goodluck in your everything , hope you can find a girl who can ton , accompanying you everytime when needed . Best brother and sister forever , luvs .

7 more days to first month :)

2010-11-07T08:39:00.000-08:00

Well i am here again helping baby to blog laughs...am talking on phone with her now while she ask mi to help her to update her blog :) and my precious says that she is cute thats y as mi to help her blog...well i have nothing much to say cos im talking on the phone with her :) let mi post a pic of my precious cute girlf :)lastly i dont love other pongpong i only love PONGPONG BEEYOKE <3

Star Light Star Bright You Are The Only Star I See Tonite

2010-11-02T13:25:00.000-07:00

Boooooooo :) Is mi again helping baby to blog since she cant :) Ok as for today baby came to my house and after that send baby back home cos she want to bathe and i when to meet lian heng at his house to wait for him to done his things and when to meet baby after she is done bathing ...Bus to jp and slack wif co..after slack when to pei lian heng to his dad's pub to get money from him and otw there we took some pic :) k ba let the pic do the talking :) after all i have a great time wif baby and co :) lastly ILOVEYOU BABY ! you really brighten up my life <3

151010 <3 !

<3 !

(Y)

2010-11-02T12:25:00.001-07:00

2010-10-27T15:36:00.000-07:00

Me & sharon did this in class . Look nice huh ? hehs :D . luckily tomorrow is the last day of school already , finally can dyed my hair after parents meeting on friday . I wonder what will teacher complain to my mum ? :o , confirm alot rubbish want , laughs, i dont give a dam . Go ahead and complain lorhs , i'm a good good girl in school yeah (Y) .Currently texting with my stupid baby now . He said he cannot dont have me . lolol , i know la , i too cute already , that's why he love me so so so so so much :D . I'm not going out today , super tired lehh , we did like 4 dishes in school today ._. . now gonna toh soon .

2010-10-24T10:19:00.000-07:00

Baby ar baby dun think too much k?Hmm you should be sleeping like a dead log now :) Just wanna tell you that I'll always be there for you , In times of trouble , In times of need , If your're feeling sad you can count on me. I'll give you a wink until you smile :) Give you a hug and stand by you 24/7. Lastly your love is a precious gift that i have received and i promise to keep it near my heart :)

Would you swear that your love for me is always true ?
ILOVEYOU BABY~

2010-10-23T07:41:00.000-07:00

My stomach is so pain now ! ): Went to sentosa just now , having alot fun there . I didn't get to play any water because i'm having my mens . Suay right ? weather there is dam hot i swear, make me sweating like hell . But baby keep using the newspaper to fan me . Like my maid ehhh , hehehs ! After that , off to bath & makeup . Then went to meet the rest already . Van back to baby house to put his bag and went to find lian heng straight away . Bus to jurong point and eat macdonald , they keep bullying ahhao , super bad alrights . Accompany them to starfac and play the catch fish want . Surprise that i saw khaiyuen just now at the toilet outside , like wow ? @8.53 , baby pei me home . (:

2010-10-21T08:01:00.000-07:00

Went out with baby just now , thanks for helping me to update my blog uh , love your post alot , laughs ! I now sibei hot , i said i believed you even i know you're lying to me , i got prove . I settled everything with you properly yesterday , now you want ka jiaowei at us ? If jesslyn never told me to see your f.fb . i won't know anything . WHO'S LYING WHO OWNSELF KNOW BETTER . If you now want play till like this , dont blame me then . I know mostly people will trust you by your decent looking , i dont give a fcuking shit . they want believe they believe lorhs , as long as we know we not lying can already . as i say " you can't judge a book by looking from it's cover . " need off now . people nagging already .

I just love the light sticks shines :)

2010-10-20T09:41:00.000-07:00

Hmmm...Guys as you can see I am helping my lazy girlf to keep her precious blog updated :) what a good boyf am I haha laughs.This few days had been meeting my precious baby without fail (Y) The day before ytd was an awesome day cos its the day i saw baby laughing so happily due so some stupid acting made by me during our FISH HUNTING SESSION :) baby was such a noob at catching those idiot fish in starf , but nvm the main thing is only want baby to enjoy her day :) As for today...meet baby and off to meet liangheng at his house..somethings happened that made me and baby angry there for we had an small quarrel between us but after that was fine cos i know you love me right baby? =X LAUGHS...when to starf aftermath for our FISH HUNTING SESSION again but today luck was not there because baby was not with me when i when out to fish :( there for today = not a good day for FISH HUNTING SESSION..when to LJS with lots of people and talk abit here and there and time check its 7.45 and its time for baby to go home :) ringed baby phone up as she was sitting at the other side.Send baby home while others when to starf :)

Baby's pic on my desktop 24/7

BEEYOKE ONG ,
Baby your the best of the best in my life :)
I truly hearts you lots <3
151010 <3

2010-10-19T21:46:00.000-07:00

I didn't go school today , sorry uh jesslyn , pangseh you alone in school ): , i know you always stalk my blog like what my boyfriend always do, thats why you wanted me to update . RIGHTRIGHT ? rofl . i really have nothing to update laaa . ): ! i'm back to watch my magic show le .

2010-10-15T06:46:00.000-07:00

Thanks for everything yeah . I know it's your first time , it still suprise me , really .. (: ! Desmond lee , promise me not to leave me too alrights ? Love you , sucker :x 151010 .

2010-10-13T20:35:00.000-07:00

Today is the last paper already , like finally ? :o , Accompany jesslyn & sharon eat macdonald after exam @ gekpoh . they dam kp , keep disturbing me . you know i know can already . Ohya , i suddenly remember something , that stupid desmond bring me take the wrong mrt yesterday ._. , both of us was like ah hai keep laughing , he keep claims that i was the one who take the wrong mrt . Nowdays , i'm getting more and more lazy to blog sial . off to watch my pokemon .

Edited.
I regretted going out today . i kanna disiao by jesslyn , sharon , samuel , yiling & peiling till very jialat . Super bwg sial , whatever i do or wherever i go , they'll keep saying i'm missing someone and alot , super gl ._. Seriously , jurong point is getting bad to worse , no place go want , walk also walk till sian liao . CAN WE GO FURTHER PLACES ? ): . Then they all went to boonlay & i go home @ 7, cause i got curfew . sad huh ?

2010-10-11T21:45:00.000-07:00

Jesslyn told me that today is cpa paper , ended up it was ebs . Make me bring my cpa textbook to school today , super heavy , so i tell jinhui to keep for me all the way till the exam over first . After school , went home play computer awhile . Sleep till half way , Desmond force me go out ._. , So went to meet Nicola & Ahboy @ cck . Something happened , shall not mention it . Well , i'm so bored now .

Youlikemetoodontyou?idontcareifhegottoldyouanything,iknowhe'syourbro,soyoutrustedhimalot,buthe'sadoubledfaceyouknow?youshould havetoldmeeverythinginthefirstplace,causeustillstandachancebutnowit'salreadytoolate,iminloveiguess?sorryifihurtyou,sorryfriend..thanksforeverythingyougaveme.

2010-10-10T22:32:00.000-07:00

Somehow , i miss the old time when the 4 of us are selling icecream ): . i miss meiqi sister badly , omg . Today , woke up around 9 , firsly i went to on my tv and watch my doraemon . Actually gonna meet jesslyn on bus @1 de , but i missed the bus so we change to bus interchange , we walk around jurong point , but there was no one there . everyone is still sleeping at home like a pig ! Trained to Bugis , cause jesslyn wanted to buy things . I finally brought a top for myself , i love it alot okay ! :D . We went to eat pastamania @4.50pm . I'm in a rush cause i'm meeting my mum at jurong point around 5 plus .

Me: Eh Jesslyn faster la , i'm in a rush .
Jesslyn: Wait uh , let me breath first .
Me: Breath your head la , faster faster faster .
Jesslyn: hehehehhes , i very full now , so must breath first . ( Breath in )
Me: ( ._. )

Dam stupid right ? Really really must kill her , She's wasting my time :x . I lost my biker jacket at bugis , I realise it when i'm at jurong point . So bo bian already , went to buy a new want . 25 dollar fly ): , seriously i'm so broke now .

2010-10-08T21:48:00.000-07:00

Hehehs , i'm hugging pipi now . laughs ! Had English and Chinese listening compre today , it was easy for me (: Went out @ 5pm just now , meet sharon & the rest . I swear i not gonna go near jesslyn & yiling anymore ._. , they kissed 5 time today , hair stand bodohh . I love peiling darling & sharon bibi now <3 ! Just now mood jitao went down down down down .. Heard something that remind me of the past ._. , i was really confuse now , brain now spinning . tsktsk , fml seriously . I hate hongsters , if you're one of them . Don't come near to me , or else i'll hate you for life ! I really have many many things to ask you , but i dont know how should i ask , well , i didnt expect much from you . Eric , cheer up (: , even though how strong you're , but i know it still hurts from inside . Anything can come to me , i'll always be there for all my friends .

it totally don't look like you love me .

2010-10-07T21:32:00.000-07:00

Today had math paper 1 exam , for me , it was okay okay ba . mayb i still can make it ? * pray * but i very happy sial ! conroy told me that i'm the only girl who pass my math paper 2 ! surprise sial ! that paper is really really hard , i can't believe i can pass ! :D , hehehes ! After reached home , toh on the bed straight away . sleep all the way till 4 plus then wake up . Meet sharon @ 6.30 at jurong point , i go there just for 1 hour to accompany her , cause she's lonely . good right ? HAHA . thanks Sharon , Garrison , Wenfeng , Eric for sending me home . thanks alot <3 !

Seriously everyone was just liars , You cant judge the person by looking from the outside .

2010-10-06T12:21:00.000-07:00

Today had my Dnt exam , can say byebye already . fail for sure x: .

WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. Last beverage: Plain water(:

2.Last phone call: Desmond .

3. Last text message : Desmond .

4. Last song you listened to : Perfect .

5. Last time you cried: I forgotten already

HAVE YOU EVER:

6. dated someone twice: ermmm, i guess so?

7. Been cheated on: Yes -.-

8. Kissed someone & regretted it: Yes. -.-

9. Lost someone special: yeah.

10. Been depressed: yeah .

11. Been drunk and threw up: Nope , i dont know how to drink .

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS:

12. BLACK

13. BLUE

14. PINK.

15. Made a new friend: Yeah.

16. Fallen out of love: Yeah.

17. Laughed until you cried: yeah , alot times .

18. Met someone who changed you: Yeap

19. Found out who your true friends were: Yups .

20. Found out someone was talking about you: Yeah.
GENERAL:

22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: Most of them.

23. How many kids do you want to have: 1 .

24. Do you have any pets: Last time only

25. Do you want to change your name: OBVIOUSLY YES .

26. What did you do for your last birthday: forgotten.

27. What time did you wake up today: 6.15pm! :x

28. What were you doing at midnight last night: Sleeping o.o

29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: To eat lollipop !

30. Last time you saw your Mother: morning in the toilet -.- .

31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: I just want a simple life , have my freedom.

32. What are you listening to right now: Songs?

33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom or USNAVY : No? ._.

34. What's getting on your nerves right now: small kids . -'-

35. Most visited webpage: Facebook .

36. What's your real name: Beeyoke.

37. Nicknames: alot .

38. Relationship Status: WIDOWED :D

39. Zodiac sign: Pisces

40. Male or female?: Female.

41. Kindergarden: Boonlay pap .

42. Primary Sch: Corporation Primary School.

43. Secondary Sch: Westwood Secondary .

44. Hair colour: black ?

45. Long or short : Short ): !

47. Do you have a crush on someone?: Nope, not interested .

48: What do you like about yourself?: i dont know .

52. First surgery: Haven't had any. yet

53. First piercing: 3 years old.

54. First best friend: Jesslyn

55. First sport you joined: Badminton

56. First vacation: Singapore.

RIGHT NOW
59. Eating: Nothing .

60. Drinking: Nothing..

61. I'm about to: Gone crazy !

62. Listening to: Dj got us falling in love again.

63. Waiting on: Eating mylollipop

YOUR FUTURE :

64. Want kids?: Maybe?

65. Get Married?: Yes .

66. Career: No plans yet.

67. Lips or eyes: Can i say both ?

68. Hugs or kisses: Hugs !

69. Shorter or taller: TALLER ! :D

70. Older or Younger: Older by 2 more year >:

71. Romantic or spontaneous: Half .

72. Nice stomach or nice arms: Nice stomach .

73. Sensitive or loud: Depends

74. Hook-up or relationship: o.o

HAVE YOU EVER :

76. Kissed a stranger: No -.- !

78. Lost glasses/contacts: obviously .

79. I erased this question for your sake: O.O .

80. Been arrested: Yeah .

81. Turned someone down: YA ?

82. Cried when someone died: Of course , i'm not cold blooded .

Random:

83. What are you listening to right now: Push Push .

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

85. Yourself: Abit .

86. Miracles: A little.

87. Love at first sight: NO .

88. Heaven: Nope .

89 God: Somehow ?

90. Santa Claus: No

91 Kiss on the first date: Nope. :)

92. Angels: No .

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY
94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: Nope.

95. Did you sing today?: In school :D

96. Ever cheated on somebody? : ya , last time .

97. If you could go back in time: I would Change everything ..

98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, Those fun times with my beloved friends

99. Are you afraid of falling in love?: yeah ! :@

100. Posting this as 100 truths?: Finally finish everything =.= .

2010-10-04T03:39:00.000-07:00

LAUGHS , eheh , he dont want tell me something so i have to sell him now . shuai ge lehh , anybody want ? selling for $1 only , offer offer , lai lai . :D , His name is : Eric Oh En Rui , 17 this year . he's a retarded , so you guys can bully him till mad , rape him also can . XD .

2010-10-03T21:40:00.000-07:00

Well , today had English exam , i scare i failed la . 50 - 50 % . Yesterday just went to town walk walk with chinglong , jesslyn , gigi , jeremy and yiling . i didnt get to buy anything i wanted , too bad lorhhs . Dont know which cb kia go told my aunt that i'm making easy money ? i'm not this kind of person ! -'- . better not let me find out who you are , i confirm let your face sui i tell you , pcb . thanks ahyi for believing me so much (: .
To Jeron , enough saying that jesslyn is a hongster . She already told you she dont love you , you say you dont mind but now you're blaming everything on her , shooting her huh ? grow up la xdd ! dont act one big behind com , why not come out talk ? if you're smaller than her then you have no rights to call her XMM . lame shit .

2010-10-02T21:05:00.000-07:00

yesterday went to celebrate samuel birthday . but i didnt get to play with them much . because i've to go home already . i really hate this feelings , while everybody is still having fun , yet i'm at home doing nothing . i'm a grow up girl , why can't i still get the freedom i wanted ? it's still the same , i've never been loved by anyone . thanks to those people who cheer me up . (: . grats sharon for finding a new boyf ! (: .

2010-10-01T22:52:00.000-07:00

Today after school , went home . my building there alot cockroaches . like more than 30 plus ? -.- , i stand there crying all the way till one bangala came to rescue my life . LOLOL , i know it's lame , but it was really scary alrights . Toh in bed straight away , sleep till 4 like that . being spam call by samuel . Prepared & went to meet them at tianci house . slack slack slack . sharon and jesslyn come afterward . i finally get to see strawberry condom , pink colour want . heh ! lastly , thanks darren for the cough syrup and lollipop alot alot . (: .

2010-09-28T03:35:00.000-07:00

This stitch cute horh ?! (: , it was drawn by the dummy eric . hehehehhes . i love it alot alot la , cute die . i'm so bored at home now , someone entertain me lehhs .

2010-09-24T08:53:00.000-07:00

i dont have any photo to post le . today is friday yet i still havent go school . 3 days already , cause of this stupid fever . And i'm sick of it , i hate getting fever seriously . make me so unwell . i wonder how's jesslyn and sharon in school now ? :o they must be missing me like hell i guess ? (: i'm so excited for Saturday , you know i know can already . Boy , you know whats today ? remember ? 24th .. well , i dont want to say anymore , i just hope you remember it , the day when you make me happy .

You're like a kid. When you want a toy, you beg like hell for it, you find all means and ways to get it, after you obtain it, you love it. But you grew sick of it gradually as time elapse. That's when you throw it aside and forget all the times when it made you happy. Eventually, you repeat the whole process again. Just like how you treated me last time ..

2010-09-22T09:39:00.000-07:00

I'm home ! early huh ? cause i kanna send home cause of fever . After all this days and staying back for reheasal , today presentation was perfect i think ? (: i was super nervous but i still make it . so bored , should i go out later ? i'm still having fever sial . i hate it , cause early in the morning i wake up , the whole house was like spinning around ._. i'll be posting later on .

Edit-ed ,
well , can i say fcuk it ? my fever now is 39.6 , my mother claims that i'm going to die -.- . i'm wearing 3 jacket now , whole body cold like shyt . Me & Eric is a audi freak today , we play audition from 1 to 8 pm , like 7 hours plus . wow ? feeling so unwell now ): . tomorrow 80 % mostly didnt go school , cant make it eh . but i'm scare i'll fail my exam , exam coming soon , i really need buckup my math . cause i've never fail before :@ ! haiis , dont know nah . if he's still there , he can teach me when i am feeling better .but impossible now ..

2010-09-21T00:56:00.000-07:00

i'm back from school , having a short post now . Tomorrow is in-touch presentation already , scary sial . i scare i'll destroy the whole drama . and yesterday just couple with eric in audi only , we take 1 hour plus to couple , cause both of our audi was super lag . lousy computer :x . Boy , stop your nonsense already . you said those mushy word to me by using mouth , but all those action was using on her . Please , we aren't as stupid as you think , we know who to choose and who's right or wrong . Those past teach us alot of things , if you really both also want then just fcuk off . you want play i play with you . (:

2010-09-20T06:30:00.000-07:00

school as usual , boring ttm , After school , had rehearsal for the drama , me & sharon was super crazy enough to sing like mad woman . suddenly rain , LOL . chinglong spend 3 dollar to catch a mickey mouse for jesslyn , she was super happy till she feel like flying to the heaven ._. & i saw her giving chionglong a kiss . hehs. she never kiss me ! >: sucker sucker sucker . actually i dont want her kiss also . laughs !

2010-09-19T10:18:00.000-07:00

Isn't them cute ? LOL . i'm so happy yesterday , cause i help garrison and eric do make up . funny ttm , dont tell me i'm gonna rotten at home again ? No place go , nothing do . Nowdays weather is causing people to get sick. I've cough and running nose , buay ta han sial . Aren't guys weird ? They uses all his effort to jio a girl , after they were together , he dump that girl away , ended up , the girl was the only one who bring those hurt with her , changing herself . If you're one of the hongster then don't come near to me. I HATE HONGSTER! i'll be single all the way till i found someone who truly love me..

2010-09-18T14:19:00.000-07:00

Today is saturday , and i still need to go school in the morning for something , yesterday had fun with ricco they all at westwood tunnel there . khaiyuen is crazy enough to show everyone the ghost charm with the song in it in his phone , i think he's trying to act cute. After that , separated with them and meet samuel , gab and yinsin , bused to garrison house . something happened . I didnt blame you for neglecting me or what , you're my best sister . so i'm always giving in . i'm not happy cause someone is separating us , you get it ? He accompany me yesterday cause he saw that i'm alone sitting on the floor. You guys was chatting , talking secrets ,playing happily and ignored me , i talk to you guys , you guys just fcuking ignored me. do you like it when people did the same to you , DO YOU ? So what if he's close to me all of a sudden , then she huan lo so much for? That message she showed to you guys, arent it saying that i'm the odd-one out ? Dont tell me her meaning is that guy only can accompany you all other than me? I'm just treating him like my normal friend, i dont even have any feelings for him . why still so scared that i'll snatch him away? Person A is no longer important to person B , because person C have snatch everything from Person A by backstabbing her and talking bad about her . For you to believe a 3 year friendship or a outsider . i think it would be better for us to come out and talk one to one ? To settled every of the misunderstanding .

2010-09-16T14:24:00.000-07:00

I'm home , hehs .Was spamming with photos like mad yesterday , we did alot retarded things , then in the afternoon went out to meet ching long they all . Today , in the morning had breakfast with sharon at gekpoh macdonald , jesslyn never come with us because she's over slept . I swear i hate today DNT lesson ._. i cut my finger , but i'm still smiling like mad woman . even though it's just a small cut , but can open de wor . Math lesson , me and sharon is being so guai to do every of our work & listen to what teacher say, bo bian , we dont want to fail this eoy exam . cause i'll get killed by my parents yeah . should i go out later ? bye , i'm off to facebook . (:

2010-09-15T10:24:00.000-07:00

Actually said that i'll wake up at 8 , ended up sleep till 9 . So went prepared for school , ended up what ? -.-
i at school outside , the guard told me , " it's already 10 , still come school for what . " please la , at least still got go right ? zzzz . fcuk sial . so went all the way home again . Which make me pangseh jesslyn and sharon in school . i think they're missing me now >: , ERIC is gonna be my TECKTONIK teacher ! hehehehehehehs , just saw him dance yesterday , super cool alrights. And lastly , thanks munfei for giving me that stitch . i really really love it alot . i'm in a lousy mood yesterday , but thanks everyone.

2010-09-11T07:24:00.000-07:00

well , i'm back from town with yinsin, gab , jesslyn , sharon & samuel. At 3 plus, bath & prepared to meet jesslyn they all at garrison house downstair there. then take 502 to somerset. cause yinsin wanted to change her iphone. waited till 6 plus, ended up didnt change. Sharon & samuel accompanying me and jesslyn to fareast shop shop. didnt saw anything i like there, so went to buy my makeup. (: 30 dollar fly yeah. i'm super broke now, omg . trained home after that. i'm off to watch my hitman reborn now , bye .

2010-09-08T19:25:00.000-07:00

I'll be rotten at home again ! ): .

Jesslyn , you're the one who's by my side when no one else is there.You're the one I can always count on, You always seem to care.You help me through the tough times, and when I've lost all hope, You sad with me at sad times, and laugh at all my jokes. You never seem to judge me or ever put me down, You put a smile on my face, Whenever you see a frown. You're better than a brother, You're more than just my boyfriend, You have a special place in my heart, That's why your my Best Friend. i'll do anything to protect you no matter what it'll cost . (: well , i guess she'll get touched by me till she become so crazy in love with me. LOL . rightright , sucker ?

2010-09-07T19:31:00.000-07:00

Had alot alot fun yesterday with jesslyn, sharon, samuel , chinglong, yiling, mumfei, wenhui & alot more (: but nowdays keep going jurong point sial, super no life right? ): , anyone is willing to bring me to town and walk walk ? hehes, jiahao make us take the wrong bus to boon lay shopping centre so we'll have to wait till very long to reach boon lay ._. when on the bus, something appear on my mind, shall not say it cause i don't feel like. i'm off to help that stupid Eric girlgirl to train his audi already. bye (:

2010-09-05T21:19:00.000-07:00

Hey bro , I'm finally letting go le .. Everything won't be perfect . Thanks to Eric and Tatsuya pei me text this few days, I'm feeling much better already . Because of you , I've change , you've teach me alot of thing , now , I finally understand it , but it's also too late le. After I know that all this while you have been loving me with all your heart , then I have no regrets . Yes , I'm happy now . I believe I still can live without you in my life , cause I'm still young yeah ? In this world , I still haven't gone through alot things like you do . But I'll learnt .. Maybe someday we will be together again when we are older abit ba . Now on , I will treat you like my very best friend now . (:

2010-09-04T14:52:00.000-07:00

Actually , I stay awake the whole night just to wait for your sms,I didn't sleep , cause I remember you used to text me after you work. But I was wrong , you didn't text me , I'm just thinking too much impossible thing already I guess? " Everything was just like what you said , it's over , there's no Point saying the past already . haa ..i love you , this is all what i can say now." So maybe maybe maybe , one day i'll be your prince , so baby baby baby tell me when you be free, i'll be your white knight on a dark knight, slaying demons and dragons , tracing the starlight with my finger from a heart and state my name , hope you can see it from your place , may our 2 heart just beat the same ~ ~ " Remember this song ? "maybe baby" the one that you wrote for me . i still will keep this song as memories, our love and everything are still in it. Goodluck in everything now ,your new life without me .. Lastly , the only thing I wanted to know now is, do you still love me ? Can you tell me... ?

2010-09-03T02:46:00.000-07:00

Just came back from chua chu kang ite . I had alot of fun there but why aren't I happy ? I'm trying my best to keep my mind occupied now , everytime when I almost cry in class today , Ill just keep saying to myself that nothing have happen before , nothing have happen before . But now to think , since he don't love me anymore , why not i just let him go. I really wanted to but yet I just can't do it . I love him , but he don't know .. Hope we still can be friends ba . All I can wish you now is goodluck for your coming exams and must takecares of yourself uh. I won't be there for you anymore .. 24th's , bye ... (:

2010-09-01T20:44:00.000-07:00

i'm in school now & sharon is beside me :D , jesslyn suck . hehehehhehehehs . i want star fac de stitch ! ): , walao eh , super cute lorhhhs . i want i want i want ! will be posting when i'm back later ?

Edited.
yeah , i knew it . we're fading . you had never loved me , i guess ? hah , now i'm still waiting for your reply . to know is it the end ? you said you can change really fast , i didnt say anything . i already did my best , yet you said all you get from me was just rubbish huh , you don't even know how much i've change for you , then you just anyhow say from what you think . The only thing you care is yourself but not others. From the start i already told you that , To me , friends are more important than anyone else. They cheer me & be there for me whenever i need them , i treat them like my small family , dont you understand ? i had never been loved by my parents ever since i was young, i know my friend for years, the only family i have now is just them, they bright up my life , you won't understand how it feels . cause your parents love you unlike me. totally different. the only thing i've now . is sisters , brothers & you. aren't you the one treating me like a toy ? you'll come to me when you need me & throw me aside when you dont need me. after that time we broke up , i found out that i'm no longer important to you. but after you gave me that stitch with a big surprise , my mind keep thinking that maybe i'm still important in your heart , so i silent laugh . but all the way till today . that message you sent me , i guess all my imaginations was just a stupid dream, a nightmare. but i'm still happy that it was still a beautiful fairytales in the start. hah ..

2010-08-24T07:38:00.000-07:00

omg ): , i feel so bored now . just eaten curry with rice . hehehehehs , seriously , i dont know what to post sial . i know someone is aim-ing for my onto headphone now , super obviously , i saw that person keep peeping at it , think i dont know uh ? alamak , you no money go buy meh ? lame . And those guys stop stealing my picture & put it on your com , psp or whatever . i really dont like it . I feel that you guys are pervert ._. , not as in you're my boyf , so steal my picture for what . zzzz .

2010-08-17T00:42:00.000-07:00

i think i'll be rotting at home today, kinda tired . I super pissed off yesterday , dont know my aunts or my ahma go lie to my mother. they told her that i always follow 2 chao ah lian ? eh , please la , nowdays teenage are wearing like this. Don't tell me you go jurong point see every girl like that wear means they're ah lian ? Get the things clear before you all say any rubbish . Jesslyn and sharon so guai , ah lian simi lan , or you all want us to wear like those small kid are wearing? gosh , we would rather die. Ahma or ahyi , if you both want complain come infront of me & complain to my mother la . Don't hide behind like some dogs & talking bull shit .

fcuk those adults , all are liar !

2010-08-15T23:24:00.000-07:00

i'm back home , i scare i'll failed my dnt test sial , almost every questions i don't even know how to do , one word , die ): not sure if i'm going out later ? i'm waiting for jesslyn call . laughs .

When I'm with you, eternity is a step away, my love continues to grow, with each passing day. This treasure of love, I cherish within my soul, how much I love you. you'll never really know. You bring a joy to my heart,
I've never felt before, with each touch of your hand,I love you more and more. Whenever we say goodbye, whenever we're a part, deep inside my heart. So these seven words, I pray you hold true, "Forever And Always, I Will Love You."

2010-08-09T20:46:00.000-07:00

Will be rotting at home the whole day today , cause no people jio me out larhs , ): i'm so excited for someone birthday , cause i wanted to see everyone . i don't know am i choosing the right choice , hais , i dont know what i talking also. I go find if there's any show for me to watch le ba .

2010-08-08T07:13:00.000-07:00

i really dont know what to do now , i'm crying alone .. & there's no one for me now.. Alot alot things happened , i believe in love again cause of you , you change me . Victor , still remember the first time we sms ? it was when you said you scanned me. After that , slowly we started to fall for each other . You wrote me a song on 24 of june , remember ? " Maybe baby " it touched me .. it's the first time that a guy will worte song for me ..I regretted that I never cherish you .. It's too late for me to say now ... Everything gone , you won't be back to me again le rights ? Then the only thing I can say now is thank you . Thank you for loving me , thank you forMaking Me smile , thank you for bringing me go eat ben&jerry. Thank you for those time when you're with me . I'm happy le .. I'll always remember all those thing we've done when we were together .. I wish you can be back to me , but it's impossible le .. Please leave me with a smile .. I hope you can found your happiness soon .. A girl which are better me ...

2010-08-02T01:15:00.000-07:00

alamak . Jesslyn is so noisy , keep saying me to faster . LOL . will post when i'm back (:

2010-07-30T18:16:00.000-07:00

seriously i'm getting more & more hate miss mazuki already . A teacher lie yeah ? fcuker sial , you know what she told sharon ? she told her that me & jesslyn pa-tou to her that sharon is the main who make us pon rehearsal. But the only thing is we never even talk to miss mazuki in the first place , how could we even tell her ? bytch bodohh , you rather not be a teacher better , liar !

Edmund ,

i'm happy that you still can remember the past when we first met ,

i was once so mad in love with you before ,but that was all past already .

You're the one choose to let me go first , after that day , i swear to myself .

i'll never be back to you again , even if you have changed , it's useless now .

i already had someone that i'm in love with now .

2010-07-26T05:38:00.000-07:00

HEYHEY , see it ? That tiko face of jesslyn . (: she'll fcuk me upside down once she saw this , rofl . ohyaa , i f.hate jiahao , not big act one big only . he dam guailan i tell you , just now i was sleeping on a chair , then he keep pushing it , like wtf ?! feel so much like slaping his ass off . zzzzzz , anyways , i'm still happy la , cause our quarrel end . hehes .

2010-07-25T07:44:00.000-07:00

Hi , I'm using my brother phone to blog now (: , hah . This few days keep quarrel with him .. Feel so shag . I can't stop my tears , how I hope , when i Open my eye ,everything was just a nightmare but that's is impossible .. Infront Of my friend , I will just act like everything is perfect cause I really don't want them to get worried . I'll just have to put a fake smile everytime .. Last Time I used to be a hyper girl , yet love change everything in me , sadness and pain started to appeared ..

2010-07-23T22:50:00.000-07:00

i'm lazy to update my blog , omgg . something happen yesterday , dont feel like saying it . haiis . will be posting more when i'm back later . going out now (:

2010-07-19T00:16:00.000-07:00

Not in a mood to update blog nowdays already. Stupid weather are causing people to get sick. I really regretted studying in this lj school , dont know why the hell i'll choose it last time . Teachers are fcuking unreasonable alrights! Nothing better to do and keep picking on me ._. & i really hate my mother alot , each day you will just scold me , what did i do ? tell me la , am i really your own child i wonder .. everyone said that you scold me cause you just care for me , ya right . " CARE " . they just said it from their mouth so easily, cause they dont even understand everything ! they're not me ! you'll always never give me what i wanted , you've never believe me , not even once .

i'm so shag , things just change so fast ..

i see it with my own eye .

L , lastlong with your girl .

2010-07-13T06:23:00.000-07:00

i didn't go to school today , just now went out with jesslyn they all to have our dinner . hehehehehs . i eat alot today ehh , hais , i wanted a pink camera so badly la ): mother dont want to buy for me . walao , walao , walao . I WANT CAMERA T.T . sad bodohh .

2010-07-08T22:32:00.000-07:00

i'm back from school ! (: yesterday after play audi with glenn , my mood suddenly change when i look at his character . kinda miss the funny & cute acts of his . anyways it's past already .. today in ebs lesson was eating lays and chipster . HEHEHEHS . HELP CLICK ON MY NUFFNANG .

2010-07-07T05:59:00.000-07:00

finally i update blog , my blog is kinda dead now . seldom people come tag le ohh , currently chatting with wayne on msn now . one of my contact lens spoil ): , i look like blind now , today keep almost fall down.
super fcuk up with one person now . he's acting like one big , even though he's not ? gosh . what age already.
i told him , if he dare come beat me , he also bwg . retarded .

2010-07-04T19:08:00.000-07:00

yeah ! finally i can play computer already . It's been 4 days i last play com . ke lian horh ? )': my brother fault lorhhs , cause he dont want let me play . Yesterday went out watch movie with munfei , adeline , jesslyn , fireboy & sharon . we watch eclipse , ending there very touching . then the bloody fireboy keep say that i'm a crybaby ? -.- stupid sial .

2010-07-01T00:37:00.000-07:00

i'll upload photo next time , my com is kinda lag now .. Glenn , i think it's time to let go .. even though we're just audi couple , but it has alot of our memories & love inside too . 31 day to 1 year le, but now it's ending . For this 11 month , we've gone through alot of thing , you make me smile , you gave me everything i wanted , you always be there for me every mins & every secs . i'm sorry for not playing audi .. i still remember ..

we used to laugh together.
we used to jokes together.
we used to chat together.
we used to quarrel together.
we always went to couple competition together .
~~we promised each other to be together forever .~~

see , i still remember everything .. we chiong 11month just for this aster ring, but everything end up like ....? when just now you told me you wanted to break soon cause you've someone you like already . i replied to you, like i dont care at all . but it did really hurts me .. anyways i respect your decision .. you happy then i also happy .. byebye aster ring .. (:

2010-06-30T06:49:00.000-07:00

i'm so so so boring now ): have nothing to play at home . i hate my mother alot i tell you , she rather believe what my aunt say than me ? she claims that i mix with ahlians & ahbengs . please lorhs , they're not even that bad , you just doesnt understand them well . =.= , tomorrow maybe eating mac in the morning with jesslyn & sharon before go school x:

2010-06-26T21:20:00.000-07:00

super tired now , mayb later going out with jesslyn (: gonna make her laugh like mad . i love karate kid ttm ! nice bodohh especially the last kick . hehehehs , i've nothing to post T.T , anyways , jesslynlauhweemin , cheer up alrights ? when you need someone to accompany you, you can always come to me . To me , you're always more important than any one else , i really dont want to see you sad or crying again .. he's just a f.bastard , just like edmund . he last time treat me the same way too, but past just let it be the past le ba .. i just hope now , we can still jokes , play , talkcraps , do something really really retarded together & laugh together like those time we used to be .

2010-06-24T09:35:00.000-07:00

I think i'll upload those pic tomorrow ba cause i'm kinda lazy now x: i love today bbq the most ! In the morning meet with jesslyn , sharon , ryan & his stead at mrt station , then after that meiqi came . Train to kallang together and take cab go east coast park . waited for the rest to reach . around 3.45 like that, victor & garyson reached so we started our bbq . The wind there was super super big , shiok okay . eaten alot of hotdogs & fishballs . hehehehs . we play balloon games in the afternoon . mine balloon was the first to burst among the girls ._. after that me , jesslyn & sharon went to the beach and lang man . :D At night , we play poison ball ! keep run here & there , i was alive for the last round . pro right ? laughs , oh my , i remember something . i saw it with my own eyes de lehhs ! I saw Jesslyn & meiqi lip to lip kiss ! ORHHOR . they super lessbian right ? wo de tian ah :/ JESSLYN , let me warned you . BETTER NOT COME NEAR ME ANYMORE ._. lolol , guys , help me click on my nuffnang & tagged my tagboard please ):

2010-06-21T23:07:00.000-07:00

i look like a bloody fool when my fringe is all up right ??? LOL, i'm super angry with a ang mo auntie yesterday ! -'- . she was like screaming at us ? =.= ,
Auntie: Do you know that you cant knock on peoples door!?
Meiqi: we're just selling ice-cream .
Auntie: it's illegal to sell ice-cream door to door !
Me: we're also not selling porns CD or drug what .
Aunite: i wanted to report you to the police!
Me: report lorhs , you can call 999 how many times you like .
Auntie: (bwg, then she repeat the sentance again) Do you know that you cant knock on other people door !
Me: if dont want buy then shut up .
Super bytch right ? wtf sial . Later work is at bedok , hope can clear stock , because i'm super broke now ):
left 10dollar at home , saddieme .

2010-06-20T20:18:00.000-07:00

~~i cant upload any photos now ! :@@@@@@~~ stupid computer , lousy :/ i just wake up from my beauty sleep only , super super tired , i dont know why i'm so in love with the never say never de song , i keep hearing it over & over again , wow ? yesterday was really pissed by brandon , he's the one lying but he claims that i lie & i peng wei ? i was like wtf , when did i even said that before . fcuk him seriously , make me feel like slapping him .
after that we went to work , i love block 761 , cause we sell 10 boxes of ice-cream there !! :D hohoho , me & meiqi suddenly went crazy , was like running here & there . LOL , too happy already . we eat our beloved otah before taking mrt home . XD i think i go watch my hitman reborn first , bye peepos .

2010-06-18T22:02:00.000-07:00

i'm so bored now , was rotting at home waiting for people to call me out . Yesterday never go to work & finally can go find chinglong they all le . fun ttm , ahxin do alot alot retarded things , make everyone laugh like crazy . i'm getting pissed by someone seriously , f.irritating . keep stick to us & following us like one mad dog.
=.= , 24th of june , we have a evergreen bbq , yeahyeah ! :D :D

2010-06-14T20:58:00.000-07:00

i'm getting pissed by some bastard in my facebook ? He claims that he's not saying me ? ohmy .
you think what, you very cute very shuai isit ? eh ? dont make me puke la . smelly mouth . & stop acting like you're some king yeah . hongster means a hongster , nothing change , no wonder you're always being played . dont know which next girl will be so pajiao to be in love with you ? gosh , for god sake , look yourself into the mirror before acting cute .

2010-06-13T21:42:00.000-07:00

it's been long i last update my blog , cause nowdays seldom play computer alrd la .
yesterday have alot of fun , but was being scratch by a stupid catcat ._. pain you know .
i love spending my time with them , laughter all the way . but alot quarrels happened this month .
Sharon , CHEER UP OK . even if you dont have him , you can always come to me (:
Jesslyn , you're as crazy as ever, you faster go find a boyf la , stop sticking to me :X
Meiqi , grats that you patch with him . HAHAHAHAHAH , but dont forget me & jesslyn uh .
Dinosuar , thanks for your everything , i will treasure the chocolate & the blue heartheart . :D

2010-06-07T20:22:00.000-07:00

yeah ! i finally can play computer already . this few days i've been working like mad lorhs !
then yesterday just kanna beaten ._. cause i late go home , wtfwtf . seriously i hate getting beat ,
i'm not a 3 years old kids anymore . zzzzz , i'll be teaming with ryan already . hehehs , he said de .
just hope today can clear stock again , got $$ , i wanted to go shopping so badly ):

hair extension .
alot clothings .
shoe .
bag

i wanted to clear all this things , maybe going to fareast to shop ? :D :D

2010-06-04T21:00:00.000-07:00

I'm single now (: , it might be hurt but it's nothing to me . Used to it ,

Marcuschenn , hope you can find someone you love ,i've never regretted knowing you , thanks for the everything you gave me , takecares boy . Thanks xiaojunjun for coming all the way just to pass me a kitkat . Laughs , i must smile like always & not giving sad face .
byebye to him (:

2010-06-01T22:18:00.000-07:00

still got work later on ):
very tired , cant cheat le laaa .
cause my ahma all buy my icecream already.
so now i'm aim-ing for my friends oh :>
those who live near pionner areas , get ready
to recieve my call , muhahahahhaahs ! XD
i must faster save money ):
i wanted to extend my hair & buy alot clothings . >:>:

lastly , HELP CLICK ON MY NUFFNANG ! ♥

2010-05-30T07:17:00.000-07:00

BABYCHENN ♥
30TH'S ,
jeremy , if you still think that it's all a lie .
then i have nothing to say .

EVERYONE PLEASE HELP ME CLICK ON MY NUFFNANG THANK YOU . <:

2010-05-28T07:59:00.000-07:00

i guess , it's all gone now ..
jeremy , i'm sorry for everything ..
i've lost such a important friend like you ..
i can understand why you're angry with me ..
sorry , i've no choice but to choose it .
our quarrels change everything between us .
i might have like "him" but i can sure
me & him wont last .
i dont know , really dont know ..
if we really cant be friends anymore ,
then i'll respect your decision ..
those poems you send me , i'll always keep it as a memories .
i hope you can find someone which is better than me . (:
goodluck & byebye to my dearest jeremy ..