I know my blog is dead, so i'm here to post . Went to imm with jesslyn & samuel today. I swear there is super boring , nothing to walk want . Thanks samuel for the ribborn hairband ! <3 . 

Boy , i wanted this relationship to last but nothing last forever. 5 more days only. I know what is your choice on that day, so i guess it's the best yeah? Trusted you so much , in the end , i'm just her subtitude afterall . I know this day would come cause your silent prove to me everything , you left me here alone crying. I dont blame you if you gonna leaving me, i'll only blame myself for trusting your words so much. Holding on to something that might never ever come true is the most stupid thing i ever do . Once, you make me feel like i'm number one in every convesation we had, but slowly you turn colder & colder to me. When i tell you, you just told me. " Dont be stupid, i'm still the same. " But i know actually it's not. In this short short 1month, 1week & 3 days , i fall in love and i had alot of fun being with you, you're the best boyf i ever had, always been treating me so good. The path i choose to walk , i will take the consequences myself all alone, i has never regrets. I hope there's still miracles. If i ask you to stay on the 31st , will you.. ?